11/5--->JPA & happy dissapointing day

It has been a long long time since i last posted a blogpost.Trying to heal myself from the pain that nearly gave me a heart attack,which is still eating me from within.


Yes,I admit that im still very frustrated about the hard fact that im not getting anything.No scholarship,no matriculation..........nothing.Come on!!I deserved something better than this!!


And then finally........the fateful day has come to check the results of JPA.My hands were shaking and my legs were treeeeeeeeeembling uncontrollably when a friend of mine,purposely send a message for me from kl just to tell me that JPA results are out!Oh the message really 'brighten' up my day........but thank you so much for telling me.After the shocking news i nearly cracked the laptop into half,because i can't get into the stupid website.Than suddenly,i received a call.............


"Hello?Yo i finally get in the web!!Faster give me your ic number i help you check!!!!!!" ............. (obviously too boring and had nothing better to do...)


My larynx make out the 12 digits with some difficulties,and my heart was pumping harder it was suppose to be.

"Yeah,u didn't get it.Same as me wahaha...."She said something about appeal and names of the lucky one but my head was buzzing and i couldn't catch up with her sentences.I replied her with mainly 'oh' , 'ah' , 'mm' and the phone call ended without me saying byebye.

Its weird.A heart broken moment without tears to complete the picture.So i guess JPA stabs me in the heart,but not enough to bring me down.